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I’m Ready for my Rainbow

I posted something on FB the other day stating what all we had coming up, as a family.  There was my surgery, Hunter’s IVIg treatment, Jude’s surgery, my daughter coming home after 22 weeks at military school, my Lady’s health, and the sentencing of my niece.  A lady said that with all that, that means you are due a rainbow.

Well….rainbow… is time for you to show the heck up.

I *need* a rainbow.

Since about April or March of 2015…the Lord turned my life upside down and inside out.  If it could go wrong, it went wrong.  He took what I thought was a firm foundation and He shook it to the core of my being.  Don’t get me wrong, I’ve learned a lot but I’m over it and now I just want my rainbow…..I really really do.

When the first massive (and no I am NOT exaggerating) thing happened…..I thought my world just stopped spinning.  I remember that day, like it was yesterday.  I was doing some cleaning up of things and I came across something that took my stomach from its normal residence down to the bottom of my feet and then back up to the top of my head.  I remember telling myself to “stay calm.”  You do not know that this is true so do not make assumptions.  I restrained myself when I called someone up to talk with me.  The question I asked….the answer I got….then the truth came out.  Then, I had to start all over with another person and do the same thing over again.  I remember falling to my knees and making a noise that sounded like a wounded animal.  I could not get my breath.  I could not stop crying.  I just crumpled myself while the other parties sat and looked helpless at the revelation.  My heart was ripped out of my chest and shattered that day.  The Lord has been gracious in putting my heart back together, but it will never be the same as it was that day.

Once I got my bearings about me, I ran out of the room and I got in my van and I headed to the one place that was my safety.  My Lady’s house.  I knocked on her door and I heard her yell “I’m coming!”  I stood there….frozen.  She opened the door and she just looked at me and I crumpled in her arms wailing.  I could not even form words.  She gently guided me to her dining room table and I laid my head in her hands….she never asked anything….she just simply prayed over me.  Once I could pull myself together, I told her what had happened.  She never showed emotion (other than her hurting because I was hurting)….she just loved me.  She loved the people who had hurt me so deeply.  She continued to pray and she called a beloved friend of all of ours and she simply said “can you please go here and do this and this.”  Our friend never missed a beat…..he did what she asked.  He knows everything and he has never ever judged or condemned any party.  He has simply loved, counseled and prayed over everyone involved.

The love my Lady has for my family is unspeakable.  It is pure, unconditional, and honest.  Believe me, she cleans my clock when I am in the wrong and she does it with a smile on her face and Jesus in her heart.  She is my person…….plain and simple.  Her guidance, through this all, is why I still am where I am and why I didn’t allow satan to make a horrible situation even worse.  I did not fall into the flesh and do what I wanted to do….I did as I was guided through intense prayer, accountability for all that was a part of this, ejecting things out of my life (though painful), and learning to live without those damn rose colored glasses…….

It has taken time to forgive….time I cannot get back but then again, the time was necessary in my healing process.  A line was drawn in the sand, that day.  A line that no party wants crossed because if it is crossed, the outcome will be way different than it was in 2015.  Forgiveness is not about giving the people who hurt me permission to do so.  It is about releasing the shackles from my feet so that I can dance.  It is about not letting satan take a moment of flesh to dictate my, or the other parties involved, future.  It is about being obedient to Jesus dying on the cross….forgiving with His last breath.

I still have moments of “what are you doing, what are you hiding, are you lying to me.”  But they are fewer and further between.  I am not perfect.  I have to remind myself that I have forgiven, in Jesus’ Name, and I’m not allowed to throw this topic up when it suits me or when I want to feel “justified” about something.  I am NOT a victim because I actively choose joy.  I actively choose obedience.  I actively choose to take that next right step, which is shown by the Light at my feet.

Once this issue was “resolved” (I say that in quotes because I still struggle, still have trust issues, still have nightmares but I believe I have forgiven)….our world was rocked again.  Rocked in a sad heart tugging way that not many people truly understand….till tomorrow, friends and neighbors.


Our Goodbyes…..

Me:  I love your face off, Lady.

Lady:  I love you too.

Me:  I love you more.

Lady:  I don’t see how that is possible.

Till we see each other again…….I love your face off, Lady……….

Faithie Josephine Sledd Cox

July 13, 1934 – October 1, 2017

Forever my mentor.  Forever my best friend.  Forever my person.


Week 14 & 40 Grocery List

Here is the grocery list for Week 14 & 40 You probably have a lot of this on hand.  Adjust however you’d like.

  • thyme
  • thighs
  • pizza crust
  • pizza sauce
  • pepperoni
  • mushrooms x 2
  • frozen pizzas
  • parmesan
  • mozzeralla
  • chili powder
  • soft shell tacos
  • cheddar
  • olives
  • rice
  • sour cream (large)
  • lettuce
  • saltines
  • diced tomatoes x 2
  • tomato paste
  • tomato pesto
  • block parmesan
  • beef bouillon
  • carrots
  • celery
  • onions
  • garlic
  • oregano
  • rosemary
  • bay leaves
  • pepperoncini peppers
  • 1 packet au jus
  • 1 packet ranch
  • roast
  • red kidney beans
  • great northern beans x 2
  • zuchinni x 6
  • tube pasta
  • frozen green beans
  • spinach
  • butter
  • chicken bouillon
  • heavy cream
  • Italian seasoning
  • chicken breasts
  • tortellini x 2
  • lima beans
  • elbow noodles
  • velveeta
  • asparagus x 2
  • prosciutto
  • jiffy mix
  • cream corn
  • canned corn x 2
  • potatoes
  • green onions
  • milk
  • tater tots
  • cream of mushroom soup

Gearing Up

Since I did my Once a Month Cooking Session, back in July, I’m ready to start again.  I have had a hysterectomy since then, so one week of recovery also included generous folks helping a girl out and bringing supper to my crew.  So very thankful…..I have thoughts on that, but I will save that for another day.

My youngest has also had his second round of IVIG (immunotherapy) for his OMS (Opsoclonus Myoclonus Syndrome), so he has had a bit of a set back…also, my daughter, who was in military school for 22 weeks), also came home.  Also, my sweet Lady is hanging on, so I am trying to spend as much time as I can with her before the Lord has her room ready.  I’m SO thankful that her boys are home (one lives out of state and one is recovering from a massive accident).  She loves them so deeply and it is such a joy to be a fly on the wall with these two…and their sweet wives 🙂  She also was a proud great Granny Jo again, when her granddaughter had her latest bundle of joy.  Lots of joy in the midst of life.  So lots going on, as usual.  It has been an adjustment with me just being tired and sore, Hunter being wobbly and unsteady, and G learning how to be a part of this family, me trying to stay with my Lady as I can… we have been keeping our heads down and just muddling through.

I do have food leftover from the last time (I know, right LOL)….so I do have a “base” of what I’m working with.  I am switching up suppers and such (using my PINTEREST boards).  As I cook, if I do not like a recipe, I immediately delete it and add a new one to replace it.  There was a pork quinoa recipe that was like eating the treads off a car…..sadly, I have another one of those, frozen…I’ll be thawing that sucker out and giving it to the chickens…I love my family *too* much to feed them that again.

What I will do, this time around, is cook this weeks of menus and double it.  We will eat on one set of meals and the other will be used either as we need it (aka when I’m over it and still have to feed the people who live in my house) or save it till for week 14 of the New Year (Weeks 14 & 40 are the same).  We shall see.

I still have the following frozen dishes:

Chicken wrapped in bacon (mashed potatoes and peas)

Cheeeseburger soup and Chili

Breakfast Casserole

Stuffed Pepper Soup and Enchilada Soup

Baked Chicken legs (roasted Italian potatoes and cauliflower/broccoli au gratin)

Mexican Lasagna

Spinach Mexican Lasagna

For this week….I am making (doubling):



Minestrone Soup and Creamy Tuscan Garlic  Tortellini Soup

Mississippi Roast (sour cream and cheddar mashed potatoes, Mac & cheese, Zucchini)

Buttery Garlic Herb Chicken & Zucchini (Au gratin potatoes, prosc. wrapped asparagus)

Cowboy Casserole (Corn Pudding & Lima Beans)

I am also going to see if my budget stretches to Weeks 15 & 41 to cook a bit more and freeze a bit more.

On tap for that is:



Easy Lo Mein (with Egg Drop Soup)

Chicken Parmesan Soup & Asiago Roasted Garlic Cauliflower Soup

Skillet Chicken with Garlic Herbed Butter Sauce (crispy garlic smashed potatoes, green bean casserole)

Chicken Alfredo Baked Ziti (Bread and salad)

My grocery list will be on tomorrow’s post (I hope).  I will also include any breakfast or lunch freezer meals.

Wordless Wednesday


One day….soon….I will be able to not go to bed at 3:30… day.

7 Best Ways to Rest….

7 best ways to rest when you have a lack of free time

“Relaxation” is such a sweet word. What associations come to mind when you hear this word? Peace, sleep, warmth, recovery, energy, health, pleasure… First, you should believe in the existence of a quick rest; yes, it does exist. Every day in a hurry, a dull routine of work, this is a reality of a modern person. At the end of the day, you flake out like a squeezed lemon, cursing everything in the world. Meanwhile, it has already been proven that rest increases productivity. Such a recreation does not require large expenses or special equipment. Maybe you won’t believe, but you may find a lot of things to help you relax. Here you will find the most effective and the easiest relaxation tips.

  1. Water treatments

Baths are probably the most pleasant way of body relaxation. Fill the tub with warm water and add a few drops of lavender or rose oil. In general, any oils refer to relaxing things. The warm bath taken for 10-15 minutes calms the nervous system. During the bath, you can make a cosmetic mask that will help give your face freshness and remove swelling from the eyelids.

No less useful is to take a contrasting shower. The cold and hot shower will help not only to cheer up, but will also open the pores, the skin will acquire a healthy color, will begin to breathe fully, and you will feel a surge of energy.

  1. Cosmetic procedures

One more type of body relaxation involves various cosmetic procedures. Putting a refreshing mask on your face is a great way to let your skin rest. Besides, this does not require much time and money. You will need 2 tablespoons of lemon juice, cucumber juice, and some Greek yogurt. Mix these ingredients, take a clean cheesecloth, and put this mixture on it. Put the cheesecloth on a dry clean face (without touching the eyelids) and hold it for 10-15 minutes. Further, remove the cheesecloth, rinse your face with warm and cool water, and pat the skin dry. After such a mask, your skin will be saturated with vitamins. Be sure to humidify the skin with a cream after this mask.

  1. Breathe! Do not breathe!

And what are you thinking about? Of course, breathing exercises. They are one of the quickest and the most effective relaxation techniques. Slow, deep breathing can help reduce blood pressure and heart rate. But you need to take it seriously, focus on your own breathing, completely ignore the noises around you, and try to hear your heartbeat. For a change, try pranayama breathing. This yogic method involves breathing first through one nostril and then another, and it is often applied to reduce anxiety.

  1. Mentally I’m here, but physically I’m not

In order to use this method, you need to relax body and mind. To cope with fatigue and get a charge of energy and strength, one may turn to the help of daydreaming. To do this, you don’t need to retire, you should just learn to turn off your consciousness in any convenient place, and it’s not that difficult as you think it is. In essence, you just need to close your eyes and imagine yourself in your most pleasant place. Once the picture becomes as detailed and emotional as possible, you can return to the real world with a rested brain, which gives a charge of strength and vigor to the entire body.

  1. With benefit to the body

Stretching: Do you have this image of the gym and graceful gymnasts in the twine? This is not necessary – you can stretch even without getting up from your workplace. Try to pull up and to the sides, different body rotations, slopes or, for example, this complex.

Yoga: One of the ways to relax at home. Many people think that yoga is very difficult and not suitable for a noisy city. However, it’s not like that at all. Yoga is a great way to take control of not only your body but your mind.

  1. Art

Listen to your favorite song: It’s amazing what transformations with our consciousness music can make. If you are upset or depressed, if you need to pull yourself together or relax, then try listening to your favorite song, and your thoughts will lean in a different direction.

Dance: Put together some energetic physical exercises, motivating cheerful music, and the flight of the soul. This mixture gives positive results in just a few minutes.

Books: This piece of art is for your exhausted mind. Yes, relaxing reading exists. Just read something for your soul, and it will help you take a break and plunge into the world of fantasy.

  1. 60 seconds

It will seem impossible, but you can rest for one minute. So, let’s begin.
1. Rub your palms – 5 seconds.
2. With hot hands, rub your cheeks vigorously – 5 seconds.
3. Drum with fingers on the top of the head – 5 seconds.
4. Gently massage your feet, paying special attention to your toes.
5. Clap on the entire length of your leg with your open palm.
With only one minute of such actions, you will immediately feel benefits of relaxation.

After using at least one of these methods, you will definitely have the strength for new achievements! Remember that overloading the body and mind is stressful and even dangerous. Get regular with relaxing, and you’ll be more productive and vigorous.


Joshua Robinson is a true professional of his “craft” and perfectionist. Joshua is a freelance writer at, linguist, and literary critic. Joshua graduated from a linguistic institute and now lives in Pennsylvania. He is fond of rafting and reading, his pleasure is in writing articles on philosophy and literature. His motto for life: “You catch more flies with honey than with vinegar”.

Who’s Up for a Giveaway???

This giveaway was a bit delayed in getting to me… when I got my notice that I need to have my review done, I reached out to my person and I told her that I never received the CD…..when I got done emailing her, my husband nonchalantly said “hey, we did get that CD, I’ve been listening to it all week long.”

Tis my life.

This week, I’ve been recovering from surgery and I’ve not been on my game…at all.  I’m so thankful for the people who love my family well, to bring us food, send us well wishes, come watch my kids, and keep me occupied so I do not rehurt any part of my broken body.

So, this review comes courtesy of my sweet husband, Big Daddy.  He “really likes it because it has good upbeat songs that he can get behind.”  It is reaffirming what God spoke to him a few Sundays ago, in church.  To live out his faith, to be the man that God has called him to be and to get off the sidelines and be an active part of life instead of a lukewarm bystander………………..which means, he really like this CD 🙂  I’m anxious to hear it now!



Matthew wrote his new album All In with the goal of encouraging himself and others to get up off the sidelines of their faith and really live it out – to go all in in your time with God, all in with your family, all in with your community, and all in battling your fears that may hold you back from becoming who God made you to be. Along that same theme, Matthew will be launching a 6-week All in Challenge on his social media starting 9/18, and each week Matthew will be challenging his fans to go all in in a different part of their lives. What does it look like when a heart that knows Jesus takes a step and holds nothing back? How can we go All In in the places that mean the most?

In order to be eligible to win this giveaway, you must like this post or any of the other social media posts that I have about this.  You can find all my social media outlets >>> on the side bar.  I will be drawing on Friday, September 29, 2017.

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Wisdom from a 3 Yr Old


Meet Hunter

The day after I came home from my hysterectomy, he was missing his mama because I had been upstairs resting.

Every night, before bed, Hunter crawls up in the bed with me and we snuggle.  This particular night was no different, but I warned him that my belly was hurting.  To help in his understanding, I showed him my bandaids on my belly and told him he needed to be gentle.

In his wisdom, my sweet baby looked up at me and said “Mama, we need to put some oils on your belly to feel better.”

Uhm, yes we do, sweetness……I have officially become an oily mama with an OMS baby who LOVES his oils.

Love that I’m teaching him about alternative ways to help heal and nurture our bodies with natural solutions instead of synthetic medications!

BTW:  He chose wintergreen for me to have on my belly 🙂

^^^Adoption Info^^^

Got some of the adoption info up.  I still need to work on Domestic and International, but the rest is done, so check it out 🙂

Shoot me any questions if you have them!

….Another Day….


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