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Operation “Get Life Together”

Operation “Get Life Together” is underway.  Here is a bit of what all has been going on the last week or two…..

  • Scheduled:  Dental appointment!  This is HUGE because I do not like the dentist, but my teeth do not like me.  It is what it is.  I have had a toothache for a while and because I CHOSE not to do anything about it (excuses:  time, money, don’t want too, doesn’t hurt that bad, blah blah blah), I now have 2 choices…1) get it pulled (insurance pays) or 2) have a root canal (insurance DOES NOT pay).  I also have to have a wisdom tooth out and some cavities to be filled.  As good as I am brushing, my mouth has always been full of cavities (maybe its genes maybe it is lots o candy).  Anyhow, I have my appointment made for my extraction or root canal.  I got them cleaned.  I also have 2 other appointments I need to make and then I will be caught up with my mouth!  Yay me!  And because I’m awesome, I went ahead and scheduled 5 of my 7 kids an appointment for their teeth to be cleaned.  Yes, I’m a rockstar, I know.
  • Scheduled:  Mammogram!  Girls…take care of your boobies!!!!!!!!!!!!  Breast Cancer is curable if it is caught early!  Now that I’ve said that, I will say that it has been 5 years since I had my last one (practice what you preach, I know).  It was also scheduled for today….which I had to cancel because I didn’t want to take the 3 little boys to this appointment and I had no one else to watch them.  I did reschedule for the week after next. I will be keeping that one!
  • Scheduled:  Papsmear!  Girls…..take care of your girly bits!!!!!!!!!  Is it fun?  Heck no.  Is it necessary?  YES!  I did go, but to my chagrin, I was late and I had started my period.  Good times were had by all.  The nurse and doctor sat down with me and we discussed life, my body, what the problems were, etc.  We have a game plan and I have a new appointment on the 25th of August.  I will be getting my bloodwork done (haven’t done that in about 3 years), I will be doing a urine test, an ultrasound on my insides, a hysteroscopy (they scrape the inside of your uterus) and a papsmear.  Getting it all done in one day (I may throw in a tattoo for good measures cause it is right across the street).  Once all of this is done and the results come in, I will be getting a hysterectomy, a bladder sling, and my girl parts fixed.  I am stoked.
  • Scheduled:  Hunter’s OMS follow up appointment and his Pediatric Opthamology appointment.
  • Need to schedule:  eyeballs for all.
  • I have begun working on our ZERO based budget plan and will do a follow up of that when Big Daddy and I sit down and write it all out.
  • We have discussed our debt and how we are getting out of it.  We are on the same page.
  • I have *not* been to the gym yet.
  • I have a goal of getting back into the swing of going to church on Wednesday nights.
  • I have begun a “for me” project…more to come on that.
  • I rocked the freezer meals.  I went and bought our groceries back around a month ago and we still have a good month left of freezer meals….it will last us almost 2 mths!  We have only had to go to the grocery one time (for lunch items and some breakfast stuff).  I spent about $550 on that July trip and we are still going strong.
  • Get my freezer meal ideas on paper
  • Cleaned my room!
  • Organized the laundry room
  • Organized/cleaned the garage
  • Made my purse emergency kit
  • Made my van emergency kit

I’m rocking it all out.  If you would like any info on organization, cleaning, the kits I’ve made, meal planning, etc….drop me a comment below.  I’m considering doing a video on some of these things to help with those who are visual, like me LOL

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New Purchase

Yes….I’m determined to get out of debt.  Yes…..we have a doable plan that will take us *forever* but still….we will get out of debt.

That being said, sometimes you just need a little something something to help the monotonous days seem a bit brighter.  I saw this hashtag  on someone’s social media (yes, I’m a stalker) and I thought “wowzer, I need that tattooed on my forehead and plastered all over my walls.”  There are days when I feel like I’m entering the 7th level of hell and it is just me and a water pistol.

There are days that I am overwhelmed.  Looking at these PILES of books that I’m trying to get through because I’m doing the kids school planning is OVERWHELMING me.  Seeing the pictures I have taken off the walls and not put up yet is OVERWHELMING me.  OMS is OVERWHELMING every inch of my person.

I am not defeated.  Jesus is still on the throne.  He has already laid out His plans to prosper me and not to harm me.  I’m just choosing to be all up in the flesh instead of depending on him.  Well………..not today, satan.  Yes, I ordered this shirt.  Yes, I may wear it everyday till it falls off my body.  Yes, I may get one in every color.

When I wear this shirt, I know that it is not just me in the 7th level of hell with a water pistol….it is He who shield me and stands to either side of me and in front of me and behind me.

So….with that being said….click on this link ZXZY Women Cotton Short Sleeves Not Today Satan Letter Print T Shirt Blouse Top and get yours too! We can be twins 🙂

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Enough is Enough

Tonight, I had this overwhelming feeling of being suffocated by debt.  I hate that feeling. I hate the fact that I am a slave to money.  That is not how it is supposed to be.  When we moved into this house, about 10 years ago…we had no debt (other than our previous house).  We do not do the whole credit card thing (learned our lesson from that), we didn’t have new furniture…if we did, we paid cash for it.  Our cars were paid for, no student loans…nothing.

Now…..shazaam……we have a van payment, a student loan, an equity loan, another type of loan, a house loan, medical bills, bills from where things have broken and they have to be fixed.  It could be worse.  I know that, but I feel like, right now, this is worse because I know better.  I know what Jesus teaches us and instead of walking that narrow path that He chose for us….we saw the bright shiny-ness of the wider road and we took it.  Now, we are standing on the little strip of dirt between the wide road and the narrow road.  I equate it, in my mind, as those little pieces of dirt between the different lanes of the interstate.  Where it is posted no U turn.  That is where we are standing.  The wide road is so shiny and it is filled with new vehicles, coach bags, sports obligations, vacations, and movies.  The narrow road is not so shiny, but it is being protected, from the elements, by these beautiful weeping willow trees.  It is filled with discipline, being trusted with little, tithing, paying cash, not serving two masters.

I am over it.  I am ready to walk on that narrow road…not sure if Big Daddy is, but I also know he is tired of it too.  This is scary.  It is a hard road.  We’ve walked on that road.  We’ve made sacrifices.  We succeeded.  We can and we will, in the Name of Jesus, succeed again.  It is time to hand over this endeavor and because we are so weak…..we need to lean on Him because He is SO strong.  He is our Strong Tower.

Another issue that we have given lip service too is our health/weight.  We are fat.  We are fat people.  We are not fluffy.  We are not round around the edges.  We are not jolly.  We are fat.  Straight up.  Our health sucks.  We get winded walking up the steps to the bedroom.  Big Daddy can’t hardly walk because of pain.  We have purposed, for years, that the next year will be the year.  It is the magical year we get fit.  We give it a week…we only lose 4 lbs of pee weight and we are done.  We want a double quarter pounder super sized with a coke the size of my face and a side of a double decker death by chocolate cake.

I am over it.  Done.  Just done.  I do not want to give the illusion that we eat crap all the time.  Frankly, I do not buy sweets (now there are other people in my house that do, then eat it all in one sitting). I do drink coke.  I am going to try and cut that down to 1 a day.  We only drink water.  I cook with tons of veggies.  We do not eat much bread or pasta.  We are fruit eaters…..we do not do things badly BUT we are completely inactive and we do not blink if we want to eat out…we eat out. So, we are affecting our health and our finances by poor choices along those wide roads.

I will be documenting our journey of getting out of debt and getting this fat off of us.  You are welcome to follow along.  You can subscribe to my blog >>>>>>>>in this side bar>>>>.  You can also follow me on any social media platform (also on that side bar).  If you have suggestions, by all means, give them too me.  Suggestions on stay at home jobs, how to make some extra money on the side, healthy recipes, or exercises.  Anything.  I am open.

Here’s to having my belly full of ENOUGH.

Onward and upward.

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Nichole Nordeman Review and Giveaway

NICHOLE NORDEMAN “EVERY MILE MATTERED” CD Review & Giveaway

Every Mile Mattered

With life getting in the way of …. well …. life …. it is nice to have a respite of sorts.  Music is my respite.  I’ve been making long long LONG drives to Louisville, more times than not.  My co-pilot is always wanting MORE music.  So, I play more music.  This has been on loop in my van.  When you go through life with a child who has OMS and the uncertainty of things…it is nice to be certain of one thing.

GOD IS GOOD.

He is good ALL the time.  He is good on the days Hunter walks and He is good on the days Hunter cannot walk.  He is good when we are home.  He is good when we are getting chemo.

GOD IS GOOD.

Take some time….enjoy your surroundings….listen to some music.  Let Christ soothe your soul.

I will be drawing a winner for this giveaway on July 26, 2017.  To enter, simply “like” or “comment” on this post or any social media post (you can find links to those on the sidebar to the right).

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Motivation Monday

This funk has GOT to go….so go it will.  As my Lady always says “pull yourself up and get outta that pit.”  With that being said….I’ve got things to do, places to go, and people to see!

  • Get thank you cards mailed
  • Email G her letter from the kids
  • Make a dentist appt for me and Noah
  • Make dentist appts for the three younger boys
  • Reschedule eye appt.
  • Schedule ACT for Noah
  • Let him drive (insert me vomiting)
  • Pack for Lville and our next drs appt
  • Call dr with update on Hunter
  • Wear makeup
  • Work on Family calendar
  • Pull some homeschooling stuff together
  • Get my letter of intent finished
  • Call OT to cancel appt
  • Reschedule said appt
  • Clean my bedroom
  • Go through and super clean the boys’ rooms cause there is a nasty smell that, frankly, scares me.
  • Call my mama
  • Go see V’s new apartment
  • Set my month’s goals (yes, we are 1/2 way into July but why wait)
  • Start my Bible reading again
  • Clean of and prepare homeschool computers and tablets
  • Read to my baby
  • Finish Freezer cooking
  • Baseball……….Baseball………….and more baseball
  • Go and see my Lady.

This season has sucked.  This year has sucked.  I have not enjoyed any of 2017 and not a whole heck of a lot of enjoyment was had in 2016 LOL.  What holds me together is knowing that known of this surprises Jesus.  He has got all of this.  He has my family.  He knows the beginning from the end.  I just have to buckle in and deal with the twists and turns of the rollercoaster I have been living on for the last year or so.

Time to live.  Time to breathe.  Time for a new season of life.  Time for new beginnings…..this is where Eccl. 3 comes into play.

Ecclesiastes 3 (NLT)

A Time for Everything

For everything there is a season,
    a time for every activity under heaven.
A time to be born and a time to die.
    A time to plant and a time to harvest.
A time to kill and a time to heal.
    A time to tear down and a time to build up.
A time to cry and a time to laugh.
    A time to grieve and a time to dance.
A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones.
    A time to embrace and a time to turn away.
A time to search and a time to quit searching.
    A time to keep and a time to throw away.
A time to tear and a time to mend.
    A time to be quiet and a time to speak.
A time to love and a time to hate.
    A time for war and a time for peace.

What do people really get for all their hard work? 10 I have seen the burden God has placed on us all. 11 Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time. He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God’s work from beginning to end. 12 So I concluded there is nothing better than to be happy and enjoy ourselves as long as we can. 13 And people should eat and drink and enjoy the fruits of their labor, for these are gifts from God.

14 And I know that whatever God does is final. Nothing can be added to it or taken from it. God’s purpose is that people should fear him. 15 What is happening now has happened before, and what will happen in the future has happened before, because God makes the same things happen over and over again.

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The Rogue Zebra Has Been Caught and Named

After almost 2 weeks of being in the hospital and having every single test run on him, we were beginning to feel the effects.  I was blessed by so much.  We had great nurses, attentive doctors…my sister arranged for her friends to bring us food and snacks.   My niece came visited, gave me breaks, brought food and toys.  My daughter came up and brought me coke and toys for the baby.  My uncle’s wife came bearing TONS of food and toys for Hunter.  I was blessed.  We continue to be blessed BUT we wanted a diagnosis.  We wanted answers.

Why was he shaking so violently?

Why were his eyes twitching all over?

Why is he sleeping so much/not sleeping at all?

Why couldn’t he walk?

Why did he scream when I stood him up?

Was he in pain?

Why couldn’t he sit up?

Why did he lean to the left, so bad, that I had to barricade him in?

Why couldn’t he chew/swallow?

Why?  Why?  Why?

I got him in the floor and we went for our daily “let’s make our legs work” walks around the nurses station.  While we were walking, we saw Dr. Sweeney and his team powwowing about our case.  I told them all not to talk to him or make direct eye contact because now, he was terrified of all people in scrubs, with white coats, or stethoscopes.  Everyone just kept on talking and while they were talking, they were watching. We had to walk in between the doctors to get through, so it gave everyone a great idea of who he is progressing or regressing.

Hunter noticed Dr. Sweeney and he stopped and spoke to him.  He told him that he liked him and he needed to come and visit him sometime (cue heart melting)….it took him a while to get that sentence out because his voice quivers and he has to really think about his words before they come out of his mouth.  Dr. Sweeney said that he was on the way and by the time we got to our room, he would be right behind us.

So, we headed back to our room.  We made it to the chairs outside of our room because when we approached our door…he began to cry saying he wanted to go home and not go in there anymore.  Broke my heart.  I didn’t know what to tell him.  We parked outside the room and watched the people walk by to help ease him.

Dr. Sweeney and his crew came up and I told him of his regressions and that by the third high dose steroid, he had stopped tremor-ing so badly, but that he is sort of stalled.  He still struggles with walking and his eyes were everywhere.  With his symptoms list, with his regressions, with his body’s response to the steroids…Dr. Sweeney was completely confidant in diagnosing him.  He said that the entire neuro team had gotten together, that morning, and reviewed everything, and collectively, they came up with this diagnosis.

Hunter has Opsoclonus Myoclonus Syndrome or Dancing Eyes Dancing Feet Syndrome. These are a good set of videos as to how Hunter is right now.  It documents the truncal ataxia, the walking, the rages, fine and gross motor skills.  Click HERE to view them all, if you are interested.  It is INCREDIBLY rare.  There is not enough known about it to have a cure, so this is something he will have for the rest of his life.

3 Ways OMS Can Occur

  • It could have been caused by a neuroblastoma (cancer) that his body recognized.  Once it is recognized as being “foreign”, the body produces B-cells that violently attack the cancer so that it is reabsorbed in the body.  Those “aggressive” B-cells do not just die off after the cancer is reabsorbed…it begins attacking the brain at the cerebellum (the part of the brain that controls your body movement) and the frontal lobe (which controls your moods).
  • Idiopathic (meaning it came from a virus)
  • It is a precursor to neuroblastoma (cancer) that can show up with the next few years.

We will be doing MRIs, CT scans, blood work, PET scans and urinalysis often to make sure there is not minute cancer hanging out.  We have had 8 rounds of high dose steroids, 1 round of IVIg immunotherapy, and will have a total of 3 rounds of Rituximab.

So far…we have seen little change.  We have good days and bad days.  We are all adjusting to our new normal and learning life.  I’m thankful to the doctors who heard me and were proactive in finding his diagnosis.  My prayer, of course, is for complete healing.

We are going to try and raise money, at some point, for a therapy dog for him.  We are wanting one for his walker/wheelchair needs and for his anxiety and PTSD in regards to doctors and hospitals.

If you have any questions, or if you child suffers from OMS, do not hesitate to comment here, or you can find me on facebook, instagram, twitter, and pinterest (all links are on the side bar).

Prayers are appreciated.  Fundraiser ideas are appreciated.  Thank you all for hanging in there and keeping up with this little series.  I will post more about this in the future.

 

 

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Happy 83rd Birthday to My Lady

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This is my FAVORITE picture of My Lady.  It was taken 2 years ago after she made a miraculous recovery from her TIAs and her stroke.  She is wearing my absolutely favorite shirt that she owns.  I love her in the color red.

My Lady captured my heart so many years ago.  Her presence is one that demands acknowledgement, in my opinion.  She is tall, regal, beautiful, honest, and she has a smile that lights up any dark spots.  Little did I know that underneath all those worldly attributes was a deep love for her Jesus, her hero (Jerome), her children, her grandchildren, her church, and her community.  She knows everyone and who is related to whom and how to get to, not only their childhood homes, but to every home every person has ever lived in and what job that they held.

She is a master cook of things like Poke Salad, Cornbread, white beans and ham…she knows everything to know about everything in the kitchen and how it relates to health.  She has taught me how to love more deeply.  How to sacrifice without complaining.  How to make decisions when I am confused.  She has held my head in her hands as I have cried over my marriage, my children, and my family.  She prays for me faithfully.  I cannot fully put into words what she means to me and how she has affected me and my life.

I am better for knowing her and being loved by her.  She is my dearest friend, mentor, and confidante.  I wish her circumstances, today, were different than what they are, but I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that she *feels* the love and prayers from everyone around her.

Happy Birthday, my Lady……………

Posted in Adoption, Health, Inspirational Thoughts, Medical, Truth and Honesty

Our Family, Friends, Church, and Community

During the last few weeks…we have seen our family, friends, church body, and community come together to bless our family in a very difficult time.  There is no way I can express how loved we feel and how blessed we are to have complete strangers stand in the gap for us through prayer, financial donations, building a ramp, providing suppers, providing groceries, carting kids around, buying necessities, and so much more.

We are, generally, the givers and doers…the hands and feet of Jesus…so this is all new to us.  This is not the path we would have chosen for our family, but it is what it is and I will not love Jesus any less for this trial we are walking through.  I do not say “why us”…I say “why not us.”   Who better to walk this path than our family.  We are being taught great things.  We are being blessed right and left.

We are humbled by the graciousness and love.  We would love for this illness to just be a season of our lives, but it may be our new way of normal.  We hope that, one day, when we get used to our new life, that we will be able to serve others in the way we have been served.

 

Here is part of the Marshall County Ramp Ministry Team.  What a blessing.

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And here is Ms. Marcella founder of Marcella’s Kitchen.  She and her team of volunteers are an amazing blessing to our family.

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Because Depression is a Real Thing

It should be discussed without judgement.

It should be dealt with….without shame.

One should not be embarrassed.

Since Ms. Jo and Hunter’s illness…..I’ve been a bit back on the struggle bus.  Not as bad as I was for the last 6 mths…I mean, I had a couple of weeks of feeling “normal”…now….I’ve taken a few steps back.

I am uneasy.

I want to cry.

I want to sleep.

I want to hide.

I want my husband to hug me more.

I do not want to be around people.

I have to force myself to be happy.

The fact of the matter is…I’m not happy.

I have peace.

I have joy.

I know that happy is circumstantial and true joy comes from the Lord.

Even in my darkest moments….I have peace.

Joy *always* comes in the morning.

For tonight….I will hide in my bedroom.

Hug my husband.

Remind myself of Truths.

Be thankful that I have medication to help me.

I will not fear.

I will not be shamed.

I will not be judged.

I am who I am.

I am a wife.

I am a mother.

I am a daughter.

I am a sister.

I am a warrior.

I am strong in the Lord.

He is my Sustainer.

He is my Refuge.

He is my Strength.

End the stigma.

Talk about depression.

Get out of hiding and ask for help.

You are no alone.

 

 

Posted in Everyday, Inspirational Thoughts

A Hiatus from My Hiatus

Well, after taking a blogging break in 2016 (with the exception of the many great giveaways)….I am back 🙂  I have realized that writing is very healing and therapeutic for me, so I am determined to get my blog rolling again.

Our New Years Eve was good….we made a bunch of soups and finger foods, because I didn’t want to “cook.”  I had all 7 of my kiddoes, with one of my bonus girls and my oldest daughter’s person.  We also had some friends over, who have 4 kiddoes of their own and we ate, laughed and played games.  It was so nice to just enjoy the company and the good food.

2016 had some incredible highs.  Our family spent 10 days traveling to the east coast.  My kids got to see the Atlantic Ocean.  We adopted our 7th child.  Our oldest had a big year, graduating college, getting a new car, getting a new job, and getting engaged.  Our second daughter finished high school and did fantastic her first semester in college.  Our oldest son is flying through his sophomore year and he has had the opportunity to work with a friend, who is a contractor, so he is been able to earn money, save it, and spend it.  Our second oldest son is reading so much better and he is doing so much better in school.
We were able to get him an official dx, so that has helped to guide us through his education.  Our next son, has blossomed in sports (baseball and basketball).  He was approved for a bone conducted hearing aid, so he will have that surgery at some point this year.  And our baby is growing like a weed…he is such a joy.  We have also found our forever home church wise.  And to top it all off, my Lady is doing wonderfully!  There have been lots more highs…but that is just a beginning.

There have also been some significant lows….one of our daughters is still struggling and we have had to make big decisions regarding her future.  It has brought lots of hurt and tension to our home.  Our adoption of our 7th child did not come easily and the circumstances around his adoption are still tender.  My daddy had a stroke this past summer…thankfully, he is doing well.  We had to put 2 of our beloved pets down, Sadie and Little Buddy. That is always difficult.

This year is full of promise.  Full of intention.  Full of purpose.  365 days to make a difference for the Kingdom of Christ.  I do not make resolutions because, frankly, I think they are super stupid.  I do, however, make some changes and more times than not, I stick through them and then they become a habit.  This year, I plan to stop making excuses for myself or my family. I plan to start saying no.  I plan to stop apologizing for who I am and how I do things.  I just want to live.  I realize that 1/2 my life is over…done….I cannot get that part back.  Now, what do I want my second 1/2 of life to be like?  I want to love my family without abandon.  I want to be intentional with my relationships with my siblings, nieces, nephews, parents, husband, and children.  I want to love my husband more and submit more to him.  I want to dig deeper in the Word and see what new jewels Jesus is waiting to show me.  I am going to plan a wedding 🙂  I’m going to send a kid off to a school that can help her.  I want to get involved in our church.  We are going to Hawaii, so I need to plan for that plus our family vacation.  So many possibilities and so little time!

365 days….what are you going to do with your new year?