After a *tough* weekend….emotionally, I had my early Monday morning chat with my sister. We chit chatted about nothing and everything, then we moved into what my triggers were from the past weekend.
A statement that swirls around in my head, from another friend, that I told to Tera. My friend said, “Brandi, you have to have a release. You have to find someone you can trust and get this stuff off your chest and cry if you need to cry.” My statement back to her was “I had that person….and she died…..now I don’t and I stuff stuff stuff it all down.”
Tera agreed with my friend and we talked about the stages of grief and the fact that I have had no time to truly grieve anything over the past 3 yrs. I’ve gone from one hit to another, with little time to breathe and no time to grieve and release the pain and emotion from everything that has happened.
Then….she took it one step further….she said
“Brandi, its okay to have birds fly around your head (referring, of course, to grief, depression, anxiety, etc), but you can’t let them make a nest in your hair.”
I agreed….wiped my tears….got off the phone….and went to the bathroom.
Then…….this is what I saw:
I texted her and asked her to define “Nest in Hair.”
So……..my birds have nested………….time for them to fly south.
Bye Bye Birdie.