Tonight, I had this overwhelming feeling of being suffocated by debt. I hate that feeling. I hate the fact that I am a slave to money. That is not how it is supposed to be. When we moved into this house, about 10 years ago…we had no debt (other than our previous house). We do not do the whole credit card thing (learned our lesson from that), we didn’t have new furniture…if we did, we paid cash for it. Our cars were paid for, no student loans…nothing.
Now…..shazaam……we have a van payment, a student loan, an equity loan, another type of loan, a house loan, medical bills, bills from where things have broken and they have to be fixed. It could be worse. I know that, but I feel like, right now, this is worse because I know better. I know what Jesus teaches us and instead of walking that narrow path that He chose for us….we saw the bright shiny-ness of the wider road and we took it. Now, we are standing on the little strip of dirt between the wide road and the narrow road. I equate it, in my mind, as those little pieces of dirt between the different lanes of the interstate. Where it is posted no U turn. That is where we are standing. The wide road is so shiny and it is filled with new vehicles, coach bags, sports obligations, vacations, and movies. The narrow road is not so shiny, but it is being protected, from the elements, by these beautiful weeping willow trees. It is filled with discipline, being trusted with little, tithing, paying cash, not serving two masters.
I am over it. I am ready to walk on that narrow road…not sure if Big Daddy is, but I also know he is tired of it too. This is scary. It is a hard road. We’ve walked on that road. We’ve made sacrifices. We succeeded. We can and we will, in the Name of Jesus, succeed again. It is time to hand over this endeavor and because we are so weak…..we need to lean on Him because He is SO strong. He is our Strong Tower.
Another issue that we have given lip service too is our health/weight. We are fat. We are fat people. We are not fluffy. We are not round around the edges. We are not jolly. We are fat. Straight up. Our health sucks. We get winded walking up the steps to the bedroom. Big Daddy can’t hardly walk because of pain. We have purposed, for years, that the next year will be the year. It is the magical year we get fit. We give it a week…we only lose 4 lbs of pee weight and we are done. We want a double quarter pounder super sized with a coke the size of my face and a side of a double decker death by chocolate cake.
I am over it. Done. Just done. I do not want to give the illusion that we eat crap all the time. Frankly, I do not buy sweets (now there are other people in my house that do, then eat it all in one sitting). I do drink coke. I am going to try and cut that down to 1 a day. We only drink water. I cook with tons of veggies. We do not eat much bread or pasta. We are fruit eaters…..we do not do things badly BUT we are completely inactive and we do not blink if we want to eat out…we eat out. So, we are affecting our health and our finances by poor choices along those wide roads.
I will be documenting our journey of getting out of debt and getting this fat off of us. You are welcome to follow along. You can subscribe to my blog >>>>>>>>in this side bar>>>>. You can also follow me on any social media platform (also on that side bar). If you have suggestions, by all means, give them too me. Suggestions on stay at home jobs, how to make some extra money on the side, healthy recipes, or exercises. Anything. I am open.
Here’s to having my belly full of ENOUGH.
Onward and upward.