I have struggled with depression for as far back as I can remember. For the past 2 months, I have been taking up residence on the “struggle bus”. It has been an epically difficult season for me. I’m okay. Then I’m not okay. I “feel” and then I feel empty with an overwhelming dose of extreme sadness. It sucks. Not gonna lie. No one can fix me, no matter how hard they try. I have come to realize that Jesus is still in the valley with me and He is keeping my head above the waves….keeping me from drowning. I’m so thankful for that knowledge, but I’m so tired of the struggle.
When the opportunity came up to review Mandisa’s CD “Out of the Dark”…I had no idea that she struggled with the things that I struggle with. Mental illness is so taboo in our culture and no one wants to talk about it. They do not want to admit that they have depression, bi-polar disorder, postpartum depression, or anything else for that matter. People are dying because they do not feel okay enough to talk about this silent killer. Please, for the love….reach out to someone. A pastor, a friend, a spouse, a mentor, a counselor. You are NOT ALONE. There is help available. The National Suicide Hotline is open 24/7 with people who are trained to help you and it is FREE! Please call 800-273-8255.
This CD sort of hurt my feelings. It sort of had me wallowing a bit…especially the first part where her friends are calling her leaving her encouraging voicemails. The sounds in their voices broke my heart but the knowledge of her deep sadness broke it even further. This CD is about God’s sovereignty. Recognizing the voice of God versus the thoughts of satan. It is about seeing that pinpoint of light at the end of the tunnel and clawing your way back up with the help of a huge Jesus, medication, therapy, and friends.
This is a story of her village and how they lifted her up and pointed her to a Savior. I wish I could give a copy of this to everyone I meet, but I can’t. So, I will be drawing a name on May 29, 2017 🙂
MANDISA is back with a NEW CD “OUT OF THE DARK”.
Mandisa wrote her song “Overcomer” in 2013 to encourage her close friend Kisha, who was battling breast cancer. Mandisa really believed and prayed that God was going to heal her, but when Kisha went to be with Jesus in 2014, Mandisa’s foundation was shaken in a way she never expected. She fell into a deep pit of depression for close to 3 years, shutting out her friends, family and the rest of the world. Mandisa believes if she had kept going down that road she was on, she would not be here today… but God stepped in and lifted her out of that pit by using her close friends to communicate their love for her and God’s love for her. This album is Mandisa’s way of letting her fans into her story – it’s called ‘Out Of The Dark’ because that is exactly where God lifted her out of!