This is a facebook post by a sweet mama who has bared her soul in this post. I have permission to repost this and I thought that it would touch the hearts of those reading it. She has said many things that I have felt, over the course of our beautiful mess, but just couldn’t put into words. Please pray for this family and for her sweet boys and their continued adjustment. You can find her facebook page and follow this family here.
Brave: ready to face and endure danger or pain; showing courage.
This past month has been the most difficult month of my whole life. I won’t go into details, but it’s been hard. Really, really hard. And last week, I reached my breaking point. My husband stayed home with the boys so I could go out to do some Christmas shopping, and I sat in the mall parking lot and cried and cried and cried. Ugly cried. I couldn’t even leave the vehicle. I had to go home. And then, I continued to cry.
And during my breakdown moment, a friend sent me a message: “Jenny. How are you doing?” And I answered her honestly. And after chatting for awhile, she mentioned that God was teaching her what it means to be brave.
And this past week I haven’t been able to get her words out of my head.
I want to be brave.
Adoption is beautiful. It is also difficult. Terrifying. Exhausting. Overwhelming. Expensive. And a lot of times, it hurts.
When you begin the adoption process, you must be ready to face and endure danger or pain.
Attachment disorders. Hurt children. Children with traumatic pasts that will NEVER be forgotten or fully healed. Uncertain or unforeseen medical diagnoses. Sleepless nights. Exhausting days. The fear of the unknown.
It makes me think of David and Goliath. A boy and a giant. A big, fierce giant who, realistically, should have won the battle. Everyone was scared of him. He was TOO big. TOO strong. TOO terrifying. The Israelites were not strong enough to go up against him! Why offer to fight Goliath, if he might kill you?
And then David stepped up. A boy with a shepherd’s staff, 5 rocks, and a sling. A boy with such confidence in his God, that he knew his God would protect him. His God would be with him during battle. And, sure enough, He was. David defeated the giant.
David was brave. He listened to God, obeyed God, trusted God, and with the help of God, he overcame the giant.
Unlike the story of David and Goliath, sometimes when you face a giant, it doesn’t go down so quickly. Sometimes that giant sticks around for months or years, or even for the rest of your life.
But guess what? That giant will be defeated. God is bigger and stronger than any of the giants in our lives.
So friends, be brave in the midst of life’s giants. Be willing to stand up against those giants knowing that they will not win. The pain and the fear is very real, but it is also very temporary. Our lives on this earth are so short and will be over so quickly. But with Jesus, we have the promise of an eternity in Heaven! Don’t let the giants stand in the way of something that God is calling you to do.
Joshua 1:9-“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”