Posted in Adoption, Everyday, Inspirational Thoughts, Medical

Not Positive Post: Skip If You Don’t Want to Read It.

Preface:

I know that God loves me.

I know that He chose all these kids for me.

I know that He has equipped me to raise these children.

I know the Scripture to offset the lies.

I.  Know.

Reality:

Learning disabilities suck.

I hate fetal alcohol syndrome.

It makes me sick to think of what a mom did in order for her child to come out of the womb addicted to drugs/alcohol.

I want to slap that person.

I want to slap that person’s mother.

The memory issues.

The learning issues.

I feel inept and unable to teach my children with learning issues.

I have anger.

I have frustration.

I have despair.

I have sadness.

I’m over it.

I’m tired.

One good day….4 bad days.

That is not good odds.

I have a 10 yr old who is still in 2nd grade because he cannot learn the basic concepts to move forward.

Do you KNOW how hard that is?

Do.  You.  Know?

I don’t know what I’m doing.

I fail, daily.

I struggle, daily.

He struggles.

We both cry.

I am over it.

I have to remember to breathe.

I have to mourn the loss of what I wanted my children to be.

I have to accept what my children are.

I need to lower my expectations of a few of my kids.

I need to readjust my thinking and teaching.

I need to line up an excellent therapist for when they get a bit older.

I need Jesus.

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This is our journey of adoption, love, homeschooling and living life to the fullest.....even if we do live in chaos (can't have anyone over syndrome).

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