As things continue to move forward and the thoughts of my son swirl around in my head, I began to panic. Not just a bit, but a lot. I mean, total panic…the thought of how we are going to pay for this adoption is SO overwhelming.
I was told today that I wasn’t a “procrastinator” but I was an “avoider” LOL I tend to be like Scarlett O’Hara and put off tomorrow what can be done today. So, I’ve been making plans. We are going to move Bug into the boys small room. I’m going to get my mom’s trundle bed, paint and get some pretty curtains. I’m excited. She is so willing and has such a servant’s heart. I’m moving all three boys into her room. I believe that it is the biggest room. It will easily fit the bunkbeds and a toddler bed, at some point. I’m making all these lofty plans in my mind when I’m avoiding the elephant in the room. Paperwork. So much paperwork.
I’m happy to say that I’m lacking 1 tax form, an income form, a vet form and 2 medical forms. I’ll be getting most of it, I’ll get on Wednesday. As for a couple of them, I sit by the mailbox and wait. Praying for Godspeed with those 2 documents. Those are for the homestudy. Our first visit is on Saturday and then our final visit is next Saturday.
As for the dossier……….other than gathering and completing my photo pages and getting things notarized…I’ve collected 98% of what I need. It is refreshing having that done. I have post it notes everywhere with what I need.
I’m still concerned about the money, but according to Matthew 17:20
Jesus taught, “…I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you”
So, I’m trying to set panic on the shelf and I’m not focusing on laundry, coupons and dreaming of my son.