Taking Time for myself is so hard. Self-care is hard but then I realized, no one takes care of the caregiver. Since no one takes care of me, I have to take care of myself.
Since I don’t take care of myself, my husband steps in and helps. He has arranged for a long weekend getaway for us. My job is to do nothing but enjoy it.
However, do you know how hard it is to relax? I say this because I have one medically fragile child and two other children with special needs? This, of course, does not take into account the other children and animals in my house.
My Big Kids
My oldest daughter, son-in-law, and my second oldest daughter are in charge. I arranged suppers, gave strict instructions to my children, and we headed out.
After our call home tonight, I knew Hunter was not behaving. He does not do well without me there. He is mouthy, emotional, refuses things, and throws tantrums. Why? Because he can.
He knows we are gone, therefore, he does what all 5 year old boys do…he pushes the envelope. I hate that he does not behave. It makes me feel like I am a horrible mom because I took some time for myself.
A Mama Knows
When you are the primary caregiver of a medically fragile child, you forget to breath, at times. I have tremendous guilt for leaving because no one can care for him like I do. Also, I do not play and he does not get away with the crap he is pulling now.
Yes, he has his struggles. His rages are part of his neurological condition. My older children are capable of handling him. He is also 100% manipulative boy who “smells fear.” He plays on that fear and he uses it to the best of his ability.
I needed this weekend. Enjoying my husband, sleeping in, eating food I did not cook, letting it all go. That does not make me an awful mom. I must not let satan play on that feeling.
We have had some deep discussions and made some HUGE life changing decisions. It is freeing to just be in the moment, to solidify things, to say things that needed to be said.
I have to learn how to cope with the condition that my son has. Also, I have to teach him to not play on his condition as he gets older. This condition is not a crutch.
Letting go of anger for a doctor who did not listen to me was a biggie for this weekend. So many things I want to say to him but in the end, what is done is done.
Realizing and forgiving myself for not pushing this doctor to do what I asked him to do in the beginning of this journey.
I yielded to a professional. In yielding, I allowed these chemicals to enter my child’s body because I was told it would help.
I am so angry with myself. As strong as a voice as I am. I freaking yielded. Now, we reap the after effects of my stupidity.
OCD, rages, insomnia, itching himself till he bleeds…all because I yielded. Damnit. I am truly so mad at myself and this doctor.
Diligently, I am trying to let it go. I have to forgive myself, this doctor, and this condition. I will not let satan have my son or my thoughts.
God is bigger. I believe he has healed my son, it just has not been manifested. One day, I will share my thoughts with this doctor. I am certain he will do things differently if someone else shows up with these symptoms. He is a smart man and will learn from his mistake.
I am just sad my son had to be the one that he misdiagnosed. Sad because I did not voice my opinion and was not stronger in what I wanted done.
Sigh…I am so thankful I have older children who can be me for a few days. Who can handle the craziness without letting me know all the stuff. I am thankful for a husband who cares for the caregiver.
For now, I will leave you with the best picture in the history of ever…this picture brings me GREAT joy.
Mama’s Old Fashioned Tacos. My Martha would make this, as we could afford when we were children. The memories attached to this dish are even better than the actual dish. It floods back family, food, togetherness. One of my favorite recipes EVER.
Mama’s Old Fashioned Tacos
2 lbs beef
1 lb ground pork (or sausage)
Cook and drain. Add cumin and chili powder.
In a skillet, put some water and then put another pan in it. In that other pan, add 1 stick butter, a large thing of Velveeta (the real stuff), 1 c. water (to start). Cook that on low until melted. Add some pepperoncini juice to that until it has a bite to it. I usually use about a 1/2 a small jar of the juice. When your cheese is thinned out, well, add in some chopped up pepperoncini’s.
Buy taco flavored Doritos, put them on the bottom of your plate, add your meat, and cheese sauce. Some people put lettuce, sour cream, and/or green onions on top.
A lot of times, I will make rice to put over the chips. I make it in a beef broth to give it flavor.
Cheesy Chicken Enchiladas is SO easy to make and you can do a variety of things to make it different. I will try and add in parenthesis some variations but use your imagination. Now, remember I am using this recipe for MY LARGE FAMILY so you may need to adjust the ingredients to suit your family size. A side bonus to making this large amount, it freezes beautifully.
Cheesy Chicken Enchiladas
5 cans of chunk chicken, drained (you can use fresh or frozen and chunk it up)
2 cans of cheddar cheese soup
1/2 jar of salsa
**You can also add chili powder, cumin, taco seasoning packet, cayenne, green onions, peppers, cilantro… The world is seriously your oyster, this is just a basic, quick recipe.**
Mix all of that in a bowl.
In your instant pot, 4 c. rice with seasoning and chicken bouillon mixed in. Add 6 c. water and put it on rice. Let cook while you make the enchiladas.
Flour tortillas, place a couple of tablespoons of chicken mixture and roll up. I used a lot of tortillas, but if we don’t eat them, I freeze them for quick lunches.
On the bottom of a sprayed 13×9 pan (I used 2 of these pans and 1 – 11×8 pan), put a layer of rice. Next, line up your enchiladas over the rice.
In a small bowl, mix the rest of your salsa and a can of enchilada sauce. Next, pour it over the enchiladas. Finally, add a layer of cheddar cheese (or any cheese for that matter).
Cover and bake at 350 for 30 minutes. Take off foil and cook for another 30 minutes.
Then, go slap yo mama.
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